02

"You? I just want to ask you to stop trying to challenge my aesthetic limits." He pointed at my skirt, filled with disdain, "It's so short, how can you even sit down? And your hairstyle, did you get inspiration from the broom at your home? Have you never fainted while looking in the mirror?"

I know that I am infatuated with Zhou Wei to the point of being unable to extricate myself; if this infatuation cannot be considered love, then it is pathological

I certainly wish that I could have whatever I desire, but sadly, I understand that this is merely my hope. I have nothing; I do not even have a home. I just want to find the right person, and Zhou Wei happened to appear at a time when I needed love. He gave me love. Although he left unilaterally, he remains the first boyfriend on my list regardless.

This is simply a lifebuoy pulling me out of the abyss of boredom, how can I not answer immediately to do justice to myself

I have been looking for you for a long time. It felt as if I was so familiar with Xie Xintao that I casually pulled out the chair opposite his desk and sat down

Do you think this is what you want

I said I came to find Zhou Wei, but you seem unhappy

But I am not afraid of him, because I do not love him, and I am not afraid of losing him. I am not afraid of anyone now; I have nothing to lose, and I have nothing that can be lost. Even if I were to throw away the whole world, what difference would it make? After all, this world has long since discarded me.

"You had a whole day of classes, it must have been quite boring, right?" he said

So, yes, I am ill. I have been ill for a long time. The ailment is poisoning. The root cause is Zhou Wei, or love

However, a person does not want to take care of their hair anymore, looking quite lonely

However, with the divorce rate being so high now, they will inevitably contribute to it sooner or later. Even if they do not divorce, it does not necessarily mean they are happy; just look at my parents, and it becomes clear. Marriage is just like that. Therefore, I generously wish them a house full of children and grandchildren, prosperity for five generations, flourishing livestock, a smoke-filled atmosphere, and the trials of eighty-one difficulties.

The humidity in the air combined with the intense heat makes one feel the heat closing in on their breath while walking outdoors

Hmph, you say I have no value? I glanced at the clock, slowly turning to the 7 o'clock mark, and found the best way to pass the time

Look at this tone, how much does he hate me

But then, what does it matter? In the end, he chose her

How should the problem be dealt with

Alright. I hung up the phone and checked the call log again

"Oh, please don't say things like that, which only couples who have broken up would say." I stood up and walked around to his side.

The aftermath of my failed attempt to find a reason online to motivate myself is, of course, a sense of despondency. I feel a weariness that fills all the gaps in my senses, a fatigue and lack of energy that seems to persist endlessly, as if a hollow feeling is engulfing me, floating on the edge of the world.

My gaze swept over the list of medical staff displayed on the wall at the entrance of the emergency department, and I paused in my steps

Life is not short at all; there is simply too much time to be spent.

Under the entry where Zhou Wei's name appears, there are all one-way "outgoing calls"

I originally made plans with Xiaowei to go get our hair done together after school today, as my bangs have completely lost their shape.

What does your affair with him have to do with me? Moreover, do you even care about whether others are happy or not? I thought your world was devoid of emotions

This place is filled with my memories. My late father was a doctor at this hospital, and I regard this place as a relic left to me by him. It is quite poignant, isn't it

Just as Xiao Wei was about to leave the classroom, she received a message from Han Jiayi, saying that they needed to meet

Upon returning home, I was greeted by an unparalleled familiarity of silence. I went into the kitchen and prepared a pack of instant noodles. Just as I finished eating, my phone rang. I took it out, and the name "Li Zhuo" flashed on the outer screen in sync with the music.

Why do you always come here

"What is wrong with it becoming a thorn in his heart? Everyone is unhappy; just look, this is such a perfect cycle"

Your mother, this guy is truly professional at hitting people's sore spots, he could practically make a living out of it

I smirked, stood up, left the desk, and sat back in the chair opposite him, not acknowledging that he had sharply guessed a part of my thoughts

Li Zhuo usually only contacts me at nine o'clock in the evening, and at this moment, the sky has not yet completely darkened, leaving me with too much time to kill. I opened a dating website and found ten friend requests, eight of which featured metal gothic or vibrant visual styles. Annoyed, I chose to reject them all and then closed the page. I am a seasoned non-mainstream individual, so don't try to impress me with these gimmicks; it's meaningless.

A figure resembling Xie Xintao appeared at the end of the corridor, nodded to the nurse, and entered the room on the left side of the corridor. I walked to the doorway, glanced at the plaque on the door that read "On-Duty Doctor's Office," and pushed the door open

Cheng Tianai, do you think that you can have whatever you desire?

How can you be lounging in the office during working hours

To speak frankly, her smile is indeed sweet. As for her appearance... well, it is not bad, but I am definitely more attractive than she is. Although I have never truly seen her, I have always felt this way and have always believed it. Now, it is merely a confirmation of my correctness.

It was so easily exposed, truly uninteresting; I silently gave him an extremely disdainful eye roll.

Or it is like being poisoned, addicted; once it is lacking, one cannot persist and is unable to make the correct judgment

He stopped writing, raised his head, and stared at me seriously for three seconds, his gaze devoid of emotion and filled with calmness. Then he smiled and said, "You're lying"

What is it, Xie Xintao, are you really only 20 years old? You are so out of touch with trends. Is Zhou Wei your senior or the object of your affection? Do you really wish for me to break up with him?

Xie Xintao, I will make you feel my presence right now

What do you want from me?" Without even looking up at me, he was swiftly writing on the medical records in front of him with great flair. "Is there any necessary connection between us?"

It is as if I know it is not worth it, yet I still keep looking at my phone, checking if he has called or sent me a message. Every time the phone rings, I hope it is him. Therefore, I despise that kind of ringing phone, which has toyed with my emotions countless times.

You could say that I am very obviously sexy. I winked, or perhaps you should appreciate how dedicated I am to elevating your tolerance to the next level

What I want now is to become a thorn in your heart. I looked at Xie Xintao, not denying that my gaze was filled with complete provocation

He glanced at me and ignored me

I will text you once the karaoke room is booked for tonight

As for whether it has value, that is no longer my concern

Who made me continuously present her with the illusion that my friend has a vast social circle and a sweet, loving relationship It is a consequence of my own actions

I suddenly thought of Xie Xintao's face, recalling his words that there are too many reasons for people to cherish life, and remembering him saying that a guy like you does not feel his own value of existence

In this situation, Xiao Wei generally accommodates Han Jiayi and leaves me hanging

Nonsense

"So what did you gain?" Indeed, a surgeon, albeit still an intern. Perhaps having seen too many scenes of blood and guts, the calm demeanor exudes a sense of cruelty.

Clearly, I playfully winked at him with a sense of charm

In the standard photo with a bright red background, there is no Xie Xintao. Intern doctors are probably not considered as employees. Below the three rows of Zhou Wei's photo, there is a nurse's photo labeled with the name "Wang Simin." She is Zhou Wei's wife.

A faint smile, almost imperceptible, lifted the corners of his mouth, and my blurred reflection appeared in his tea-brown pupils: "I can only feel that you are being ostentatious in a place where it is neither necessary nor appropriate. You merely want to highlight your youth in front of Zhou Wei, to make him aware of your advantages. Yes, you are young, you dare to show off, but so what? You still can only come to disturb me." You merely want to highlight your youth in front of Zhou Wei, to make him aware of your advantages. Yes, you are young, you dare to show off, but so what? You still can only come to disturb me.

So is Xie Xintao really a doctor who saves lives and heals the wounded? His ability to touch people's hearts is truly exceptional. I might as well push the medical records in front of him to the edge of the table and sit directly on the table: "Can you show a little more love for this world? You should know that although there are many unpleasant aspects in this world, it is not without beauty. For example, me."

The hospital corridor is always somewhat dimly lit, making it impossible not to feel that this is a desolate scene. Even in July, it feels as if wrapped in bone-chilling cold, with the silent air floating, exuding a sense of coldness and alienation